This is a place of respite and peace for me! A place of prayer and a coming to know my God and yours!! But then I leave and find myself outside and distracted once again. For as St. Paul says in Romans 7: 18-24 from the USCCB site.
For I know that good does not dwell in me, that is, in my flesh. The willing is ready at hand, but doing the good is not.For I do not do the good I want, but I do the evil I do not want.Now if [I] do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.So, then, I discover the principle that when I want to do right, evil is at hand.For I take delight in the law of God, in my inner self,but I see in my members another principle at war with the law of my mind, taking me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.Miserable one that I am! Who will deliver me from this mortal body?